Hey guys and guess what? Its more bad news...

Yesterday my friend called to inform me of the status of my laptop. Will its fried, toast, done... As near as he can tell its something wrong with the mother board. He aslo said I'd be better off just getting a brand new laptop. This really sucks, my mom has blamed me for all her computer problems and has forbiden me to even TOUCH her new computer. (which is having issues not caused by me) So once AGAIN my only internet access it the library which is an hour drive from home. There's still no work that I can find or even qualified for.

So all the Trainz shtuff is called off for the time being as anything and every thing has been lost. As if I haven't gone through enough crap already. I could really use a winning lotto ticket or something right now. Something just to get me started! I'm tired of my mom CONSTANTLY bitching, moaning, and complaining about I'm "Taking up her space" or how I should be out on my own.

The truth being if she hadn't F$#%ed up my life prior to moving here I WOULD be out on my own, I was doing fine. Unitl she made me feel guilty and she used me as a second income. She says I owe her money, the only thing I owe her is for paying for the moped repairs and nothing else. She expects me to magicaly go out one day and come home with a job. She's F*$&^ing delusional.

I'm sorry for ranting but I've been trying to get help wiht the aspergers stuff but people are completely incompetant of doing their jobs and I'm getting the Government 2-step with it too! I'm trying to see someone for depression but no, I have to prove that I have no income in order to see someone with out paying the full fee of 30 or 50 dollars. I feel like I'm stuck here and I'll never move any farther than this; and I don't want to believe that!

GEEZE even Holloween sucked! We only had ONE family stop by for Trick or Treating! LAME!!!